Rapunzel and her moonlight Chap 64- The right way to live

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“I know that feeling,” said Ragini,”one can feel alone even in the midst of a huge group of people.”

“Why does that happen?” asked Ved from the other end of the line,”with so many people staying with us why do we still experience pain and heartache?”

“They call it the art of living,”she said wrapping her quilt tightly around herself,”maybe we all just dont know how to live well. I remember staying with two other women when I was working as a librarian. Those women were nice and caring but we hardly ever had any heartfelt conversations together. Sometimes we are just in need of someone with whom we can discuss our worries. And sadly that person is often missing.”

“So what should I do now?” he said sounding really confused,”everytime I try to be grateful for all that I have this loneliness grips me again. I dont feel like I am living the right way.”

“Maybe you are not,”she said sipping some warm water,”but you can mend your ways anytime you wish. You see I have been staying with Ms. Manya for quite a few months now. I dont like her at all. But I havent run away. I am still here and let me be honest with you. Some days are really bad and I feel awfully angry at my fate. But then I remind myself that fate is a mystery and I better not try to solve it. Whats not under our will and control is not for us to think about. I am where I am though I dont like being here at all. But when I simply choose to be kind with myself instead of being grumpy the whole time, I feel quite better. For months I had no friends and I longed for someone to share my sorrows with. But then I realised that waiting for someone is not going to make my life any better. So I simply took responsibility for how I was feeling and decided to help myself feel better.”

“And how exactly did you do that?”he asked.

“When in life,” she said,”we are trying really hard to reach somewhere we often link those accomplishments to the way we feel. If you are trying too hard to look for your soulmate you link joy and completion with that relation. If you are trying too hard to earn a good sum of money you link strength and confidence to material wealth. When you start linking your feelings and peace of mind to sources outside of you, you are bound to feel hurt and lonely. As soon as I realised this, I focussed only on ensuring my very basic needs and gave up this struggle of trying to reach somewhere. I work hard on my dreams and attend my classes with full dedication but everytime I see myself feeling upset over where I am in life, I step back and see how I can care for myself in a better way. None of us likes being lonely and hurt. But very often its us who are creating this pain and misery for ourselves. Months ago I had no one by my side to help me and comfort me. It did hurt a lot to face everything alone. But then I decided that my peace of mind is solely my responsibility. I made my life a lot more disciplined. I began to work in the garden in the mornings. I couldnt do much. I simply pulled out the weeds and trimmed the shrubs. I used to collect some herbs for the morning tea as well. This helped me stay grounded as I was in close contact with mother nature. I began to paint not with ambition but with meaning. It helped calm down my angry mind and what I created with love motivated me to do better. Yes, I was still living a life with no friends by my side. But I wasnt crying over it. Yes, life did feel empty at times but I made no compromise in taking care of myself. I would go into the woods and pluck some fresh fruits and and flowers to make my own set of colours. I stopped seeing money as an obstacle to anything I wanted. Money became my best friend. When it felt that something is right for me, it held my hand and walked with me. But when it thought that the particular purchase wouldnt benefit me in anyway it left my hand and ran away.”

“Thats easier said than done,” said Ved,”loneliness isnt something that can be dealt with just by being nice to yourself.”

“You know that Mrs. Bhatia has been staying alone for months, dont you?”

“Yes,” he said,” she told me so.”

“Have you ever seen her upset or stressed?”

“No,” he whispered,” I havent.”

“Thats because she knows how to take care of herself. She is always dressed simply and mostly she sews her own clothes. She is saving money for her oldage and also keeping herself engaged. She makes delicious apple pies every weekend and distributes them to all her neighbours. Thats how she lives, doing what she loves with no fear or worry. She is such a nice neighbour to have.”

“So,”he said finally getting it,” you mean that the way outbasket-fashion-flower-basket-88647 of loneliness is to be there for yourself by doing your best. It implies being nice to yourself no matter what instead of waiting for others to cheer you up.”

“Exactly,” she said drinking some more warm water,”thats the right way to live.”

“The fog is appearing again,” he said,”I hope its not a bad omen.”

“Depends on your perception.”

“I see. I hope you are recovering now. Just to let you know the new housemaid is giving Ms. Manya a really hard time. She is always munching cookies and drinks up all the milk. This is driving Ms. Manya crazy. But I feel the poor woman is simply a foodie and no one should mind her enjoying some extra cookies.”

“I am glad you feel that way. Ms. Manya is pretty strict. I wonder how this is going to turn out.”

By Kairavi

Namaste my loves. Do join me on my journey to embrace the healing power of nature and love to better our lives and fulfill our dreams.

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